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Name: Alina
Country: United States
State: Florida
Metro: Miami
Birthday: 10/23/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Learning more about my Saviour and His desires for my life. Music! You can usually hear it (folk, jazz, blues, alternative, hiphop, etc.) coming from my stereo at any given time. I really like to find new bands that seriously kick and spread the good news about their skills. Going to live shows has become a favoured passtime, as well. I love driving. Nothing like her for a good roadtrip. Writing is great, too. It's an enjoyable way to express myself, since I'm inclined to do so quite often. I love to travel. Shocking, right?
Expertise: ADVENTURES!!!
Occupation: Intern
Industry: Positive Media (film)
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
MSN: curlz_85@hotmail.com
Member Since:
5/13/2005
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| After a not-so-long day at work, I come home and relax for several hours. This is pretty new for me on a Friday. Typically, I'm running home to get ready to go out and do something fun and/or adventurous. Sad, I resign to my room contemplating the ways I can escape this terrible tropical prison.
Ah, Key Biscayne. I have mixed emotions for you. My mind is telling me I should be overwhelmed by the abundance of beauty you hold, while my heart is showing me the desires I have to seek adventure and explore the world beyond the Rickenbacker Causeway.
Outsiders encourage the wants of my heart, pleading for me to go with them to the city.
The city! Oh, right. I remember those tall, sophisticated buildings, the variety of shops and restaurants, the people!! Yes, I think I'd like that.
No vehicle. But a small fee to a kind man in a yellow car can solve that problem. Jorge calls a cab from his apartment near the beach. I head to the golf cart with my roommates and am disappointed to see that it's not doing so well. Charge it.
We notice Adriana's car remains in the driveway, while Adriana is nowhere to be seen... Hmmmm... Mercedes picks up her phone and dials. Adriana is more than happy to give the keys over to Alina in order to allow for our night of festivities. Jorge calls the cab to cancel. And gets picked up by 3 lovely ladies in a Porsche.
The destination: Dolores But You Can Call Me Lolita's. We lovingly refer to it as simply Lolita's.
We friends share a Summer Salad, Gnocchi, dessert, and Merlot on the roof of a building in Brickell -- fans blowing to keep us cool... What a pleasant evening.
A soothing drive back to the Key. Maybe a little too soothing, since Jorge was lulled to sleep on Rickenbacker. These ladies were not about to carry him to the 7th floor of his building. No way... A gentle nudge and he was out of car.
More adventures tomorrow. Jessie promised.
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| I wonder sometimes why I do the things I do. I feel like a fish swimming against the current of a roaring river. Every time I think I'm making progress, I stop to contemplate life, and just end up losing some of the distance I had made. DOES ANYONE KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT?! Sin, people. The stupid, destructive decisions I make (whether they seem minute at the time or not) which cause me to take some steps backwards in my journey. I'm seriously sick of this human nature to do things I shouldn't. Just when I think I'm getting a better handle on my life, I tend to slack off in my devotions, or in my time spent in quietness before God. Why? My pride, of course. "Well, God, I seem to be doing ok, so it's totally fine to skip a day here and there." WRONG. How can I be so stupid to believe these lies? God wants me to surrender DAILY to Him and acknowledge the fact that I am incapable of living righteously without Him. It's also so important that when I do find myself backsliding, that I don't allow it to become a habit... This can be so dangerous! I need to recognize the fact that I've screwed up, change my actions, and move forward. Christ's blood has covered all my transgressions. I serve a merciful and gracious God who loves me unconditionally. But the one factor people tend to block out is the fact that we need to be repentant. Knowing who God is and living the way God asks are two different things. Sadly, I have even found myself in situations where I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I decided that since I was a child of God, I'd just do what I want and eventually I'll change my ways. When it fits my own agenda, of course. How sick is that?! His ways are perfect. Mine are not. Period. a.d. Romans 7 | | |
| I had to have a good laugh the other day when I sat down with my pastor and he asked me what my long term goals were "other than getting married, of course." Wait, what? Of course? WHOA! Marriage actually did not cross my mind when we were sitting down to meet and discuss my next steps in life. I'm single. Straight up.. No prospects.. Not on the "available and looking" list whatsoever. And I sincerely love it that way. Don't get me wrong, I like men. They're great -- attractive, funny, and usually entertaining. It's not that I believe I need to make a point that I can do everything on my own. I am no feminist. My reasons for enjoying this time of singledom rests mainly on the fact that I am free. Free to work, free to take roadtrips with whomever I please, free to move, free to make decisions without significantly affecting someone else... What's on the agenda for today? That's right. Whatever ALINA wants or needs to do. I really don't know where God is taking me over the next few months/years, and I feel as though I'm truly blessed to have the option to simply take off when I need to. I don't have the responsibilities that others do who are in committed relationships. Someday, I know this lifestyle of mine will change and I will gladly accept commitment. For right now, I need to take advantage of my carefree attitude and run with it! I need to embrace this freedom I have and gain more life experience! a.d. | | |
| I was accepted into the internship program at Positive Media. That means I have about 2 months to make a bunch of money before I move down there. It'll only be 3 months out of my life, so I definitely think it's worth taking the time off work to do it. I'm not about to pass up on an opportunity like this. Even, though I almost talked myself out of it. SAD! I still have 2 weeks to make my final decision, in case I feel the Lord asking me to stay here. I'm heading out to SABC (southern alberta bible camp) to chill with my friend for the weekend.. and just spend some alone time with God to listen to Him. Life around here sure fills up quickly, and I find myself rushing through devotions and working ALL the time. I need this time away from the city to gather my thoughts and just let Him speak to me. My boss is even thinking of letting me take my job back in the fall. I'd only get part-time hours, but I would definitely get a second job.. Thinking of trying to sell my CR-V again. Any takers? a.d. | | |
| The normalcy of my days is truly beginning to wear me down. If you know me even remotely, you'd know that my patience (and attention span) is fairly limited. I am almost incapable of residing in one place for more than a few months. This brings me to some facts about my current situation. Today, I will have been living in Lethbridge for 550 days. That's disgusting. Now, I suppose it wouldn't be so bad if I were actually working at a job that I loved. In reality, I'm simply making money to pay off loans at a job that I do not intend to keep. But how long do I wait? I've been seeking advice from many people lately. Some tell me to wait out this recession and stick with the job I have, since I have such stability. Others say I should be leaning more on God than trying to accomplish MY goals on MY terms. There must be a balance here, though. I cannot be irresponsible and quit my job, move somewhere without some kind of guarantee for work and go into more debt, or worse.. have creditors after me. Yet, I also need to consider the fact that God can absolutely provide me with whatever it is I need to survive and remain financially responsible. I'm not looking for wealth, here; I'm looking for freedom. I don't want to owe anyone anything. This means I have to work off my previous debts. In the meantime, should I simply be working at a job where I feel utterly unfulfilled? I have always seen myself working in some kind of ministry within the realms of media. Where do I start? Do I return to school? Do I just pick up and move to a bigger city? Do I wait until my debts are paid (in 5 years, if I'm really lucky) and then decide? I am in a phase of my life where my responisibilites are few. It is truly the prime time for me to pick up and go. I just need to know the "when" and where". Here's hoping I have some doors open for me soon... a.d. | | |
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